u make ur own path. ^^V

yes, that was what i believed. u lead your own path.

initially, you make so many mistakes in your life.

it's so untrue or a lie if you said you never make mistakes.

a mistake teach you!

a mistake make you stronger!

a mistake make you mature!

a mistake make you understand a reason to life for!

a mistake make you HUMAN!

however, its quite funny for those who never learn from a mistake.

but thats their choice.

:)

one day, they will..

i have learned mine.

therefore i will never make another, hopefully.

haha. *i eventually make mistakes my whole life i know*

just i hope i will not forget it is my mistakes and learn from it!

i know Allah SWT is always there for me to make me realized things in life in which i will initially forget sometimes. ;(

i wish i was a better person in future.

aminnn~! :)

mistake of mine! :)

lately saya takde perasaan. I don't know why, but yeah. I haven't update my blog much cos most of the time i'm addicted to FACEBOOK. haha. until there are a few friends kinda joking me what am i doing at the moment, they will definitely said i'm playing with facebook! oh well, its true~ :D i AM ADDICTED to facebook. tried to be away from it, but it will only last paling lama 2-3 days. hehe. actually sebab selalu bukak facebook utk main games and check a few people latest update. :)

ok eventually these days might be a few status of mine is quite down. some of it is untrue. in which the latest one. Actually, i was down, but not as down as the week before. sebab dh kena therapy kan? so i was okay dh. just saje2 buat status camtu. so for those who actually worried (maybe la ada kot, i pemes sikit *perasan* haha), don't worry~ haha. i know my mistakes and i won't tell it to you. i have seen the mistakes and i know where to betulkan and i am degil. so u can just lay back. i might not ask all of u to support me, but i know who will back me up. i might be sombong or kacang lupakan kulit, but there are people who actually won't support me. therefore i intended to back off from those people. so i won't be label. i am tiring of being label. hope u understand. i know i am very degil. i listen, but sometimes a friend words may hurt you ore. so sometimes to certain people, i can't tell my problems. it is just the way it is. one reason i can't tell a person may be cos once they hurt my feelings. so rather than happen again, i have the tendency of can't open up to them anymore. haha. sometimes you have friends who actually be-friended you for their own benefits. i am not being emotionally cos i am not at the moment. i do not feel anything. i know i can be an idiot. cos i am most of the time. but don't make it as it is my mistake most of the time. i may seem to be abandon some of my friends. but u have to eventually understand. but yeah. let just say, i wasn't that friend when u needed me kot kan?

i know these are a bit merepek. but it doesn't matter. hahaha.

as for my studies, i have a new aim! *yay* to study hard and forget the nonsense stuff around me~~ i am STRONG! i know that, but i just ignore it mostly. haha. my aim is to have a better chance and graduate happily~~~ *wink wink*

PS: eventually i miss someone deeply inside! so deep i cannot remember besar mana but that person might actually forget me. i know that person does not remember me at all! *merajuk merajuk* hahaha. rumate kata jgn sedih. sem depan kan ada lg. hahahahaaha. rumate ku kali ni paling best! cyg anda. ;) u were there when i was ugly, cantik, bengong! :P i was thankful to know u. thanks a lot!! and that is why i love her much, my rumate~

ayat-ayat cinta mengaburi mata!

PUISI AYAT-AYAT CINTA

Duhai makhluk yang lembut hatinya
Aku tak ada siapapun kecuali Allah di hatiku
Aku ingin menjadi yang halal bagimu
Yang dapat dengan sepenuh hati mengecup keningmu
Sehingga tak ada lagi resah yang menyelimuti qolbu
Untuk redamkan tiap riak-riak harapan itu
Bukan semata untukku
Tapi juga untuk-Nya…
Karena ku malu saat merindu-Nya
Ku juga merindumu
Ku berdoa mengharap kepada-Nya
Ternyata juga karena ku mengharapkanmu

Maafkan aku…
Sungguh, jodoh bukan milikku…
Ketidaksanggupanku saat ini menyisakan sebuah kepasrahan
Ku kan kembali kepada Ar-Rahmaan
Harapan menjadi harapan
Dan biarlah menjadi rahasia tak terungkap sepanjang zaman
Jika ku pun pantas menjemputmu
Maka biarlah Allah yang mengantarkanku padamu
Di saat yang tepat
Dengan proses yang cepat
Namun sungguh pun bila kita tak bertemu
Maka biarkan menjadi kisah sejati
Yang tak akan pernah mati
Ya! takkan pernah mati.
(from: http://masthoms16.wordpress.com/2008/03/02/puisi-ayat-ayat-cinta/)

Ayat-ayat Cinta - Sebuah Puisi

Bidadariku,
Namamu tak terukir
Dalam Catatan harianku
Asal usulmu tak hadir
Dalam diskusi kehidupanku
Wajah wujudmu tak terlukis
Dalam sketsa mimpi-mimpiku
Indah suaramu tak terekam
Dalam pita bathinku
Namun kau hidup mengaliri pori-pori cinta dan semangatku
Sebab
Kau adalah hadiah agung
Dari tuhan
Untukku
(from: http://apieceofwidie.blogspot.com/2006/04/ayat-ayat-cinta-sebuah-puisi.html)

dear readers,
i do not know what is in my mind now at 4.06am on tuesday morning dated 9 March 2010. feeling in a lovey dovey mood. haha. tetiba teringat novel ayat-ayat cinta. i think most probably because i listen to ketika cinta bertasbih by melly goeslow feat amee and selawat burdah from amar everyday makes me somewhat tenang. haha. but yeah, another thing is i try to be strong. kenapakah aqela selalu nangis? i know some of my friends are REALLY DAMN BORED of me being a crybaby these days. but what the hell? do i look like i care? oh well. hahaha. pandai je ckp aqela ni, tp nanti sedih lagi. but its okay. slowly i'll be mature and stronger. : ) though i know i am somewhat alone actually. i know i never had that person who will actually be there for me all along. i know there isn't anyone who actually can tahan with me. the problem is that i am so much of a manja person and crybaby as well as talk a lot about my problems that i never actually listen to other people feeling. my fault in a way, too taksub with my own problem. sedar jugak actually. tp kekadang cam x disengajakan. uuuuuwwww~ sorry sgt to my friends yang merasai begitu. anyway, me off to assignment balik! huhu.. aja-aja fighting~~

xoxoxo, aqela = )

based on a blog.. haha

okay there is nothing related about the title. but just wanted to update a blog. haha.
though i just read a few blogs of my friends. indeed some got interesting facts.
yeah i'm an avid follower. XD quite la. see how the mood are at the moments.
so have quite a lot of time. so kinda follow a few. listing of blog i followed often are:

1. Natrah
2. Clive
3. LiaFareesya
4. Waaz (yg dh lama sgt x update. haha~! :P)
5. Azrie (sama kes ngan waaz. XD)
6. Husna (haa.. ni pun sama..)

so basically yg often tu ada 3 je la yg active~ :)
clive got great stuff to talk about. what is the world is doing and what people are thinking. general stuff u see. nice~! nat is quite the same as me. update whats we're doing and feel. quite common stuffs~ haha as for lia's blog, i don't know why. but indeed i am very subuk-ing in her blog. just had the feeling to read. haha. tp mmg selalu ikut. hana ada entry blog yg agak menarik selalu. so suka baca jugak.
okay~! seems like i am like giving review of what i read on every friends blog, though no offence. i just like u guys blog. ;)

books? think again. :)

*wink wink*
i went to big bad wolf book warehouse just now for the 2nd time.
haha. got a lot of books.
though i knew i wouldn't read some of it. haha. some are books that i bought for suka hati.
some are good. see how. what mood i'm in, i'll read. :)
oh, yeah. there a few of my friends who work part time there at the big bad wolf warehouse which are: Wanie, Farah & Matt. so, when i went 1st time on the 1st day(26 Nov) i met up wit all 3 of them. *farah muka stress dowh time tu. hehe :D* but sekejap je, sbb jumpa time nak bayar. but there are a lot of kinda new books and damn cheap. weeeeeeee~! i like to go books warehouse. :)
however i'm still searching for a book that Clive had suggested me, which is the title is 'Suzanne's diary for Nicholas'.
i have read review saying that it was a good book indeed~
so i'm kinda eager to find it at the nearest bookstore. :)
thx en Clive~ huhu. sy sgt bosan, oleh itu akan pergi bookstore lagi for another round for the book that have been suggested. :)

**i kinda miss my lovely friends: emi, arre, nat to come back from Latihan Industri~! wei korg cepat la balik. bosan la tanpa korg. uwaaaaa~! cepat la. then i miss somebody. haha. tak tau kenapa tp asyik teringat this specific person. why? :)*

when not heal, what would u do?

okay, might not so good. i have no tips as well. however, what would you do when u are not yet heal from a thing or 2 of a problem that you are having?*eh betul ke ayat ni? haha* as for me, basically, i will be a bit moody. haha. tp kalo borak2 with me, its okay. just talk to me about anything, but not about the specific problem i'm having. though sometimes u will notice that i went out often if i'm in a problem. haha. yup2. eat more, go out more. hahaha.

anyway, can anyone suggest me what book to read? i'm kinda bored this holiday. hehe. :)

i'm suffering~

just got back from night rider event II.

with azrie, nadhrah as well 1st year junior FSKTM; bazli ngan alif. :)

best giler. kitaorg g medan selera dkt mana ntah, tp area vistana hotel.

next destination were dataran merdeka tp sekejap sbb sunyi giler.

then we went to stop at 7-11 at the dataran merdeka as well heading to shah alam for a ronda-ronda!

haha. it was definitely fun!

weeeeeee~!

sgt best bg saya yg sgt kecewa.

seriously i was DAMN devastated today!

how seriously i wanted to cried at warung the moment i got to know the truth.

i reached back to college at 10.10pm at night.

then went off to eat dinner at warung wit azrie + nadh~

was happy 1stly, then felt dumb the next moment.

i was definitely admire the person and was about to get to know him.

only to discover i was cheated.

he definitely played me.

i was shocked to know he was eventually close to a person i trust.

i mean that i knew the girl who was with him had a boyfriend~!

cos i knew i saw & tegur her before when she went dating wit her bf.

they might be friends.

but can a friend be having dinner, just the 2 of them & lepak together just the 2 of them for like 3 days or so?

i don't know. i might jump into conclusion so fast, but i know i was hurt!

DEFINITELY IT HURTS!

i was down!

i talked to the girl when i, azrie and nadh went to DM.

haha. but my mind was elsewhere. i couldn't straight.. *weak smile*

soon i discovered i went night ranger with all 4 of FSKTM students of different year intake!! haha

padan muka! amat la tensen ngan exam x prepare sgt, pastu kena sebijik bdk yg diminati ngan org lain. *weeeee... benci~!*

i was so hurt even what other said to me i couldn't accept.

so... i went off to sms-ing husna about it!

damn love her for being supportive! as well as azrie + nadhrah for being there!

love the 3 of them for being there.. :)

appreciated u guys much. XD

lepas sms-ing husna, i sms-ing firdaus. *my fave 1st year guy junior*

thx a bunch to him for giving me a supportive shoulder and inspiration!

thanks for supporting me and on my side.

the way husna, azrie + nadhrah been supportive the whole night and morning!

haha. oh x habaq yg kitaorg kuar gi jalan2 kat kl from 12 in the morning to 6am~!!!!

woooohooo!

kami gila... hahahahhahahaha..

anyway, take note that i still HURT~!

but thanks for the ride~! totally forgot about it the whole 6 hours. hahaha..

aqela is moving on~~

sesuatu melukakan saya~

sesuatu membuat saya terasa luka di hati.

enggak ku cerita di sini~

cuma ingin mengatakan saya tergamam.

here is what my heart is filling out:

let tell u my side of story before you ever told anyone about u felt.

u don't have to tell others about everything that u felt.

spreading it. i'm kinda tergamam.

but it's okay~ i understand the situation.

i might did the same thing, but i don't announce it to the world.

hope u come to me and tell me what u think~

did i really want to hurt u?

do i?

am i?

could i?

why would i?

i really think we're in good terms~

i don't see why this is happening!

why?

**beep beep. saje je ni. hahahaha . xde apa2 pun benda ni! heee~ just for fun!