*take note* i going to marry DS, people~!

okay people!
please sit down. i wanna announce something..
i'm going to get married.
wit DS~!
not Derek Sheridan or Daniel Scott or daging special burger ke.
tp DATA STRUCTURE~!!!
ya, itu la jejaka idaman saya.
tepat 28 December ni akan kawen lg ngan DS tu ek.
sila dtg ke majlis perkahwinan aqela ngan en DATA STRUCTURE di DK1~!
sumer dijemput hadir.

*dlm hati aqela tgh menyumpah seranah si mr ctk nie. adess. dier nak suh amik baper kali atau aqela bodoh sgt data structure nie.*

rosak benar feeling raya aidiladha kali nie~~

adakah saya benar-benar bodoh DATA STRUCTURE?? sila jawab kan. sgt sakit hati ni.. :((

i'm suffering~

just got back from night rider event II.

with azrie, nadhrah as well 1st year junior FSKTM; bazli ngan alif. :)

best giler. kitaorg g medan selera dkt mana ntah, tp area vistana hotel.

next destination were dataran merdeka tp sekejap sbb sunyi giler.

then we went to stop at 7-11 at the dataran merdeka as well heading to shah alam for a ronda-ronda!

haha. it was definitely fun!

weeeeeee~!

sgt best bg saya yg sgt kecewa.

seriously i was DAMN devastated today!

how seriously i wanted to cried at warung the moment i got to know the truth.

i reached back to college at 10.10pm at night.

then went off to eat dinner at warung wit azrie + nadh~

was happy 1stly, then felt dumb the next moment.

i was definitely admire the person and was about to get to know him.

only to discover i was cheated.

he definitely played me.

i was shocked to know he was eventually close to a person i trust.

i mean that i knew the girl who was with him had a boyfriend~!

cos i knew i saw & tegur her before when she went dating wit her bf.

they might be friends.

but can a friend be having dinner, just the 2 of them & lepak together just the 2 of them for like 3 days or so?

i don't know. i might jump into conclusion so fast, but i know i was hurt!

DEFINITELY IT HURTS!

i was down!

i talked to the girl when i, azrie and nadh went to DM.

haha. but my mind was elsewhere. i couldn't straight.. *weak smile*

soon i discovered i went night ranger with all 4 of FSKTM students of different year intake!! haha

padan muka! amat la tensen ngan exam x prepare sgt, pastu kena sebijik bdk yg diminati ngan org lain. *weeeee... benci~!*

i was so hurt even what other said to me i couldn't accept.

so... i went off to sms-ing husna about it!

damn love her for being supportive! as well as azrie + nadhrah for being there!

love the 3 of them for being there.. :)

appreciated u guys much. XD

lepas sms-ing husna, i sms-ing firdaus. *my fave 1st year guy junior*

thx a bunch to him for giving me a supportive shoulder and inspiration!

thanks for supporting me and on my side.

the way husna, azrie + nadhrah been supportive the whole night and morning!

haha. oh x habaq yg kitaorg kuar gi jalan2 kat kl from 12 in the morning to 6am~!!!!

woooohooo!

kami gila... hahahahhahahaha..

anyway, take note that i still HURT~!

but thanks for the ride~! totally forgot about it the whole 6 hours. hahaha..

aqela is moving on~~

broken heart ke? not me. maybe. [done]

perasaan hari ini kurang baik~! entah mengapa. maybe sebab ternampak sesuatu yg unexpected. terkejut kah saya? yup. terkejut bangat. kenapa terkejut? entah. tp x perlu. sebab saya rasa saya mempunyai hati yg kuat mcm tiger biskut. berikut luahan hati dan keluhan hati. =) kekadang terasa tertipu kerana si DIA sebab teringin DIA. tp ku pasrah udah. kumbang bukan seorg! *aqela smile ok~!* :)


am i broken hearted? 50/50

did i actually knew the case where the person actually did have someone special?
yes, i doubt he did, but he didn't tell me the truth. always told me he is scared to be in love.

am i sad? most probably~!

am i jealous?
not really cos i knew somewhere deep inside he have someone. i knew cos he couldn't accept me.

am i a damn ass to believe him? maybe. to think back, yeah maybe.

have i actually moved on with life without him? yeah. something like 60/40 or 70/30.

will i eventually forget him? yeah, i know i will. but it takes time.

why did i feel pain? i have no idea

do i still like him? no~! *seriously*

why i sometimes feel pity for myself? cos i think i wasn't that confident. can't fight for what i want. i am weak. i din't get what i want. FULL STOP.( *.*')V

why did i still felt the pain, not a pang of jealous, but the pain of looking to things i didn't get?
no idea. the feeling is something complex..

[end for now]

**feeling sad but not so. macam mana tu? hahaha*

**1st Day**

today is the 1st day of a new semester. not really a nice semester it seems cos a lot of our batch friends is not here. it supposed to be the fun time. haha. but somehow this semester is kind of lonely. don't you think so? i didn't have class with most of my friends, thought most of them are doing intership this semester. sigh~! i miss them already! *LOL* where is my friends when i need them? :D hehe. yeah, there are a few friends who i'm going to hav e dinner together is not here this semester. ooh, being emo again~ :) hehe **i'm in the missing mood** :)

today i just went to 2 classes which are TCEE and Statistics. Okay, the statistic is soo damn boring one. i really bored in the class causing me to fell asleep sebab tetiba ada lecturer. bosan giler. dh la xde note pastu buku pun xde. bosan giler nak mati! adoi..

ooh wait, will write soon. gonna eat dinner at the hall downstair. see u a bit later..

penat giler dowh~!

pwehhh. sgt penat okay tadi~! saya memulakan hari ini sgt awal iaitu pukul 530pg utk bangun & get ready. agak berkobar-kobar gak td masa briefing tp masa nak minta donation, saya sangat malu!! tp tebalkan muka. dh berapa kali entah kena reject. tp mmg malang. dapar 1 org je and makcik tu bg 10 ringgit. so sepanjang pagi, hanya ada 10 ringgit je ngan saya. huhu.. org lain dapat rm50++. sangat banyak~! saya agak sebab saya x dpt cakap elok pastu org mmg x nak bg. susah gak la nk minta. so sgt tensen. other than that, sgt penat. saya dpt area SS2, azrie + nadhrah ss24. penat jalan satu SS2 tu, sgt besar! penat giler. pastu balik kolej kul 1.20ptg, qiqi gi solat jap n jumpa balik kul 1.50pm, which petang tu gi berjaya times square. kat situ pergi tanya any shop yg rasa nak advertise their shops in the booklet and if any of them wants to open a booth during the pc fair thingy. we reach college at 6pm, and ws very exhausted. penat giler. hope tomorrow is the end. but i hate the donation thing. i really did. for pitum, at first i thought it was boring, i find this thing is getting interesting from bit to bit. only the donation drive is suck~ damn sucker.. anyway, gonna find the mood. even when friends told me this thing is trashy of me being inside the project alone and how trashy the project is, i kinda like the project now. so sometimes i do find it hard to accept it.