*take note* i going to marry DS, people~!

okay people!
please sit down. i wanna announce something..
i'm going to get married.
wit DS~!
not Derek Sheridan or Daniel Scott or daging special burger ke.
tp DATA STRUCTURE~!!!
ya, itu la jejaka idaman saya.
tepat 28 December ni akan kawen lg ngan DS tu ek.
sila dtg ke majlis perkahwinan aqela ngan en DATA STRUCTURE di DK1~!
sumer dijemput hadir.

*dlm hati aqela tgh menyumpah seranah si mr ctk nie. adess. dier nak suh amik baper kali atau aqela bodoh sgt data structure nie.*

rosak benar feeling raya aidiladha kali nie~~

adakah saya benar-benar bodoh DATA STRUCTURE?? sila jawab kan. sgt sakit hati ni.. :((

i'm suffering~

just got back from night rider event II.

with azrie, nadhrah as well 1st year junior FSKTM; bazli ngan alif. :)

best giler. kitaorg g medan selera dkt mana ntah, tp area vistana hotel.

next destination were dataran merdeka tp sekejap sbb sunyi giler.

then we went to stop at 7-11 at the dataran merdeka as well heading to shah alam for a ronda-ronda!

haha. it was definitely fun!

weeeeeee~!

sgt best bg saya yg sgt kecewa.

seriously i was DAMN devastated today!

how seriously i wanted to cried at warung the moment i got to know the truth.

i reached back to college at 10.10pm at night.

then went off to eat dinner at warung wit azrie + nadh~

was happy 1stly, then felt dumb the next moment.

i was definitely admire the person and was about to get to know him.

only to discover i was cheated.

he definitely played me.

i was shocked to know he was eventually close to a person i trust.

i mean that i knew the girl who was with him had a boyfriend~!

cos i knew i saw & tegur her before when she went dating wit her bf.

they might be friends.

but can a friend be having dinner, just the 2 of them & lepak together just the 2 of them for like 3 days or so?

i don't know. i might jump into conclusion so fast, but i know i was hurt!

DEFINITELY IT HURTS!

i was down!

i talked to the girl when i, azrie and nadh went to DM.

haha. but my mind was elsewhere. i couldn't straight.. *weak smile*

soon i discovered i went night ranger with all 4 of FSKTM students of different year intake!! haha

padan muka! amat la tensen ngan exam x prepare sgt, pastu kena sebijik bdk yg diminati ngan org lain. *weeeee... benci~!*

i was so hurt even what other said to me i couldn't accept.

so... i went off to sms-ing husna about it!

damn love her for being supportive! as well as azrie + nadhrah for being there!

love the 3 of them for being there.. :)

appreciated u guys much. XD

lepas sms-ing husna, i sms-ing firdaus. *my fave 1st year guy junior*

thx a bunch to him for giving me a supportive shoulder and inspiration!

thanks for supporting me and on my side.

the way husna, azrie + nadhrah been supportive the whole night and morning!

haha. oh x habaq yg kitaorg kuar gi jalan2 kat kl from 12 in the morning to 6am~!!!!

woooohooo!

kami gila... hahahahhahahaha..

anyway, take note that i still HURT~!

but thanks for the ride~! totally forgot about it the whole 6 hours. hahaha..

aqela is moving on~~

i hate my new sem! *LOL* :p

:D tajuk yg x memberangsangkan! *LOL* anyway, i have a terrible start of the semester this time around. too many changes of schedule and more. it does make me a bit pening already. oh God! do help me. too many clash between classes. so i really annoyed already! seyesly annoyed sebab byk x amik lg kan. tu yg bengang tu. bengong! uwahh, dh la tukar tak inform kami. x ke sengal. pastu tutorial clash pulak. dh mintak nak tukar tp minoriti je yg clash(which is 3 org je). aiyoo, susah la camnie! :( uhuks..

[away~!]

broken heart ke? not me. maybe. [done]

perasaan hari ini kurang baik~! entah mengapa. maybe sebab ternampak sesuatu yg unexpected. terkejut kah saya? yup. terkejut bangat. kenapa terkejut? entah. tp x perlu. sebab saya rasa saya mempunyai hati yg kuat mcm tiger biskut. berikut luahan hati dan keluhan hati. =) kekadang terasa tertipu kerana si DIA sebab teringin DIA. tp ku pasrah udah. kumbang bukan seorg! *aqela smile ok~!* :)


am i broken hearted? 50/50

did i actually knew the case where the person actually did have someone special?
yes, i doubt he did, but he didn't tell me the truth. always told me he is scared to be in love.

am i sad? most probably~!

am i jealous?
not really cos i knew somewhere deep inside he have someone. i knew cos he couldn't accept me.

am i a damn ass to believe him? maybe. to think back, yeah maybe.

have i actually moved on with life without him? yeah. something like 60/40 or 70/30.

will i eventually forget him? yeah, i know i will. but it takes time.

why did i feel pain? i have no idea

do i still like him? no~! *seriously*

why i sometimes feel pity for myself? cos i think i wasn't that confident. can't fight for what i want. i am weak. i din't get what i want. FULL STOP.( *.*')V

why did i still felt the pain, not a pang of jealous, but the pain of looking to things i didn't get?
no idea. the feeling is something complex..

[end for now]

**feeling sad but not so. macam mana tu? hahaha*

**1st Day**

today is the 1st day of a new semester. not really a nice semester it seems cos a lot of our batch friends is not here. it supposed to be the fun time. haha. but somehow this semester is kind of lonely. don't you think so? i didn't have class with most of my friends, thought most of them are doing intership this semester. sigh~! i miss them already! *LOL* where is my friends when i need them? :D hehe. yeah, there are a few friends who i'm going to hav e dinner together is not here this semester. ooh, being emo again~ :) hehe **i'm in the missing mood** :)

today i just went to 2 classes which are TCEE and Statistics. Okay, the statistic is soo damn boring one. i really bored in the class causing me to fell asleep sebab tetiba ada lecturer. bosan giler. dh la xde note pastu buku pun xde. bosan giler nak mati! adoi..

ooh wait, will write soon. gonna eat dinner at the hall downstair. see u a bit later..

gone baby gone

*weak*
*happy it's holiday*
*bored*
*loving holiday*
*blur*
*frustrated*

ok ok. haha. move on. can u believe the holiday got only 9 or 10 days left before the semester starts? *sigh* i want more holiday~! cis memang mengada. hahaha. dah ada 2 bulan cuti nak cuti lagi. :D anyway, i practically don't have the mood for the study season at the moment. *LOL* i dont wanna come back to UM. haha. but what to do? my home is practically behind UM itself~! haha. i can even see 10th college from my house. *aqela bengong* huhu.

anyway, i just read a friend's blog. she just came back from Umrah. it reminds me about my Umrah one year ago. exactly a year from the time she went. what she wrote was practically 'indah'~! haha. yeah, because at the time when i went to Mecca and Madinah, i felt completely free, happy. i didn't even think about my life here in KL. haha. it didn't even came up to me for the 2 whole weeks, except when i was going back home already. :p however reading her stories and side of view make me think about the feeling i had a year ago when i went for Umrah myself. what an experience though. :) nice moment and wanted to go again. i have a few places/countries myself that i want to visit in the future. you know, france, italy, korea, finland, indonesia (again~!). hehe.

so, this holiday i kinda have done a few things. i'm not sure of saying that i'm proud that i finished doing it. haha. here some:
serious task: PiTUM booklet.
my brother project booklet. (this one i wanna see the output. its gonna be
turned to be a book)

books that i read: stargirl by jerry spinelli
if u could see me now by cecilia ahern
milkweed by jerry spinelli
the broken bridge by phillip pullman.

movies: night at the museum 2
state of play

dramas: boys over flower, korean
bloody monday
ryusei something2. (haha cannot remember the title)
ugly betty season 3 (half way. didn't download another half. hayya..)

okey dokey babes~! i'm lost in translation again. gonna finish here at the moment. am discussing with my brother what time are we going to watch Transformer 2. SHIA!! wait for me~!

here FIND by SS501. my jihu a.k.a kim hyung jool~!