*take note* i going to marry DS, people~!

okay people!
please sit down. i wanna announce something..
i'm going to get married.
wit DS~!
not Derek Sheridan or Daniel Scott or daging special burger ke.
tp DATA STRUCTURE~!!!
ya, itu la jejaka idaman saya.
tepat 28 December ni akan kawen lg ngan DS tu ek.
sila dtg ke majlis perkahwinan aqela ngan en DATA STRUCTURE di DK1~!
sumer dijemput hadir.

*dlm hati aqela tgh menyumpah seranah si mr ctk nie. adess. dier nak suh amik baper kali atau aqela bodoh sgt data structure nie.*

rosak benar feeling raya aidiladha kali nie~~

adakah saya benar-benar bodoh DATA STRUCTURE?? sila jawab kan. sgt sakit hati ni.. :((

broken heart ke? not me. maybe. [done]

perasaan hari ini kurang baik~! entah mengapa. maybe sebab ternampak sesuatu yg unexpected. terkejut kah saya? yup. terkejut bangat. kenapa terkejut? entah. tp x perlu. sebab saya rasa saya mempunyai hati yg kuat mcm tiger biskut. berikut luahan hati dan keluhan hati. =) kekadang terasa tertipu kerana si DIA sebab teringin DIA. tp ku pasrah udah. kumbang bukan seorg! *aqela smile ok~!* :)


am i broken hearted? 50/50

did i actually knew the case where the person actually did have someone special?
yes, i doubt he did, but he didn't tell me the truth. always told me he is scared to be in love.

am i sad? most probably~!

am i jealous?
not really cos i knew somewhere deep inside he have someone. i knew cos he couldn't accept me.

am i a damn ass to believe him? maybe. to think back, yeah maybe.

have i actually moved on with life without him? yeah. something like 60/40 or 70/30.

will i eventually forget him? yeah, i know i will. but it takes time.

why did i feel pain? i have no idea

do i still like him? no~! *seriously*

why i sometimes feel pity for myself? cos i think i wasn't that confident. can't fight for what i want. i am weak. i din't get what i want. FULL STOP.( *.*')V

why did i still felt the pain, not a pang of jealous, but the pain of looking to things i didn't get?
no idea. the feeling is something complex..

[end for now]

**feeling sad but not so. macam mana tu? hahaha*

**tired** [DONE] helping my brother + register subject

1.39am. [DONE] i am seriously done with my brother's booklet. kinda 98% successed with the design, just a few yang slack esp. the cover. but nanti esok betul kan. dah tak larat. mata dah jadi panda lagi cam time dulu2 masa study week. ok, haha sebelum study week pun dah mata panda selalu. :P tak boleh diselamatkan mata panda ini. anyway. very the tiring la td. lepas dah complete tadi, pergi try print the booklet to the result. eventhough its the draft. ok-larr i guess. not bad. 95% for me~! yay~ haha. anyway, basically i can almost rest [i think! ooh do let me go~ i hate doing it again. sakit badan, sakit kaki, sakit tangan, sakit mata, everything sakit while doing it. :,(] ooh i wish to settle it soon!! pls, i don't wanna see it anymore. muak la dah. penat penat. aiyoo~

3.30pm. in the evening, i completed and successfully register my next semester subjects. it took me 1 and a half hour to complete it. hahahaha. aqela gila betul. actually i was looking at the koko list which one is nice. yeay, it took me an hour to think~! *LOL* dahsyat gila! hahaha. yang lain dah register, just yang koko tu je tak register lagi. so i was briefly choosing and slow-motionly thinking. after that long hour, i decided to take... penerbitan majalah inggeris~! tak nak amik tarian la. selepas pikir panjang td, nak amik tarian mula2. tp pikir2, aqela keras sgt la. tak boleh nak lembut-lembutkan kaki + tangan + badan. haha. dier cam nanti.. eh eh. haha. so after those long thinking moment, i took magazine thingy. is that sounds boring? oh well, nak amik sukan pun, ada bola sepak je kot tinggal. nanti amik baru tahu. :P but anyway, here are the subjects i have confirmed to take and other subjects mmg not being offered and this is what i managed to register:

Penerbitan Majalah(English)

Professional Writing for Computer Science

Statistics for IT

Data Structure (my beloved subject*bwek*)

Technopreneurhip

Auditing Info System

is it okay? yeah, i hope so. i hope this semester 1 2009/2010 is better~! much better. :) anyway, gotta go and get some sleep. sleepy now. lalalala.

[OUT] 1.56am

hati ini memanggil kamu~

perasaan apa kah ini? saya sgt bosan. hehe. SAD exam paper baru habis today. meaning, i left only 1 paper to go, which is my beloved Data Structure~! seyesly quite tough. but i have 3 days to study harder and harder. saya nak lulus. nak sgt. pastu carry mark DS saya x bagus cam member saya. saya nak dpt sama ngan member saya, tp x dpt achieve. saya rasa sebab labtest saya x bagus. x tak dapat buat ngan baik2. saya sedih. SAD exam td pun x berapa nak okay. asyik tgk hussein madya, budak indon tu wat, saya jadi gelabah. terpikir di benak hati; "ADOI! kenapa qiqi x baca ngan byk ni? nak tulis byk2 cam hussein." hussein buat dengan sgt relax! org yg kat sebelah pulak yg takut. saya sgt blank. tak terkata apa dier nak. especially soklan no 3. yg lain ok sikit kot. confident 2 soklan je ok. lg 3, hurm.. heee menyesal nye~ tp sebab saya tengok result carry mark DS saya mlm sebelum tu kot. saya x de mood. hurm, so nampaknye kena study la utk DS kesygan ku itu. :) saya x nak tengok muka saya dlm kelas tu lagi. saya malu. sangat malu. asyik muka saya je ada dlm tu. saya sendiri bosan tgk muka saya dlm kelas tu. kalo comel + pandai nye muka xpe ar lg. ni asyik wat muka blur + mengantuk. apa la. patut malu akan diri sendiri. hehe ni pun patut baca buku DS ni. sila hafal ya~ hahaha

pastu apa lg eh.. oh yeah. siapa dh tengok 'talentime' by yasmin ahmad? pretty good movie though. that indian guy is soooo hensem~! haha. but i like the songs more la. sungguh bermakna. haha. anyway, ada satu lagu ni called 'angel' by atilia. i'm not sure whether most of u know her or not. but that is one her song beside sangkar. this song have 2 versions which is in english as well as malay, just like the other 2 songs sang by aizat called 'just one boy' and 'i go'. good translation i can say. ahaa quite good~! anyway, this is a portion of the angel song in malay, which kept singing and stuck in my brain:

angel, tunjukkan la mata hati mu
seperti selalu
ku tahu
kerdipan bintang
pasti kau hilang

(chorus)
bawa daku bersama mu
oooo
bawa daku bersama mu
oooo

ku inginkan hanya kamu
percaya la kepada ku
angin hembuskan rindu ku
ku tahu nurani diri ku
mahu ku hanya kamu
lirikan senyuman yg membisu
tetapi hanya kamu

ini x penuh tau. atas dier dh hilang. saya x dapat tangkap apa dier nyanyi. hehe.

this is the english version:

Angel

I have a dream of you I can't defined

You've been on my mind

Don't go

I feel lost without you by my side

Lost and on my own

Yeah I'm falling for an angel

Angel

Your brightest star is shining next to mine

Every night and day

You know

Stars exploded then they fade away

Then they fade away

Yeah I'm falling for an angel

Yeah I'm falling for an angel

Would you please be my babe

Come by and I lay you down

I'm loving when you say

I love you too

Won't you please be my honey

I'm sorry that I let you down

Your eyes are breaking my heart in two

Break my heart in two

Angel

May the one above us keep you safe

Every night and dayIf he knows

How I love the smile all on your face

When you are here to stay

Yeah I'm falling for an angel

Yeah I'm falling for an angel

so long, so slow, yet so romantic~! haha saya agak suka lagu nie. sebab saya teringat sesuai. certain people akan tahu kenapa saya suka. ada lagu satu lagu saya suka juga. tapi nanti la saya copy and paste the lyrics.

owh how i really can't wait for holidays~! i want my holiday! i want i want i want. sgt penat dh. roomate dh packing barang. dierorg dh habis exam! best nye. apatah lagi roomate saya sempat berlawak kata 'kiki, nak coklat utk awak. utk happy2 day. exam saya dh habis and saya nak balik!' wahh jeles. haha. saya ada lagi satu paper. x best. :)

saya nak gi genting~ sapa nak teman? jom la gi ramai2. :) saya nak.