fly my heart away..

feeling free like a bird did i? i think i was definitely feeling pretty much okay now. after all the things i was thinking of telling him is over. i was feeling lega now! at least i know what is his answer. i am definitely S.A.T.I.S.F.I.E.D with his answer~! ok la. tak la rasa cam sedih atau frustrated sangat. i don't know. Some people might thinks its weird and how did i actually not feeling anything like marah ke, bengang ke apa? but yeah i just don't felt anything. but anyway, one thing for sure i was HAPPY~!! at least we were still friends. ok la kan? =) entah la. basically cam okay~! tak reti la nak cakap. tp.. ok actually ada sedikit cam erm, feeling i wanted him to say yes. ada sikit sedih gak la sekarang. semlm x rasa sedih. tp hari ni baru rasa. but, i am actually understand why he say no and he gave me a good explaination. eventhough at first he was really gelabah. supposedly it was me who need to be gelabah but in the middle of it, it was him who actually is. however i really salute his attitude. mmg baik la org nya. at least masa last2 tu lepas i asked him can we be friends again and forget what i had said to him. i was really lega he said ok. but honestly i didn't felt any hard feeling towards him. x de marah sangat la. pilu la sikit. haha. tp aqela kan tabah org nya! =) basically the feeling yesterday was a mixture of sedih + happy + lega + blank + takut! haha. sedih sebab x dpt extra. tp x mengapa, aku jugak tidak menyesal. sebab apa yg telah terjadi aqela bangga dengan diri sendiri kerana sikap berani. happy sebab at least kwn. lega pun sebab dh bgtau. blank + takut tu sebab mula2 x tau nak cakap. anyway, i'm fine! moving on now! haha i'm still happy with myself~! seyesly, saya bangga ngan diri sendiri + happy sendiri + good to be single. jika ada seseorang itu, bagi saya perlu hingga ke akhirnye. perlu seseorg yg tepat. sebab org itu yang akan menjaga saya selama2 nya. yg akan mati hidup sama2.perkenalan juga perlu dlm niat yg baik + ikut sunnah. haha. cara Islam kan? betul kan. saya sensitif sikit. mmg suka cara ini. mcm emo. :D sebab saya takut kalo dkat sangat ngan lelaki. kalo kwn2 biasa, mmg la aqela x tak malu. just bila dh ada some other feeling, saya takut sikit. but, even when i'm not scared pun, i prefer this cara than couple. i don't know why, but my mind mcm dh ter'set' camnie. i like this choice. Islam is my way~! hehe :)

other than that, i am definitely studying on my another 4 papers, but more focus on the next week 1st. terrible really for studying at the late minute. should have schedule on the studies 1st but as many of you know i am soooo the malas one. haha. sangat malas nak study! apa nak jadi nie eh aqela? sangat malas semester ni.. how to be the old me like last semester. last semester sangat rajin. hehe. agak la rajin. tp i have make appointment wit lea cute to study SAD + DS!
chaiyok2 aqela! ada 4 papers lagi to go nie. need to baca sgt byk benda. haha. aqela can do it. study! i need tips. =) hehe

after 4 may, i'll be sgt seronok!! yay~ just ada PiTUM nye donation drive. malas sgt sebenarnye. :) entah mengapa. sgt malas. sebab kena buat pamphlet lagi. malas nye~! uwaaa mls.. haha tp kena wat. hehe aqela dan kemalasan mmg dh jati dah. dh mcm ibu dan anak. tido pun sama. haha. suka apa! :p hehe

ok babe, will write soon~ do keep me inform with anything. kinda down these days + lazy!