fly my heart away..

feeling free like a bird did i? i think i was definitely feeling pretty much okay now. after all the things i was thinking of telling him is over. i was feeling lega now! at least i know what is his answer. i am definitely S.A.T.I.S.F.I.E.D with his answer~! ok la. tak la rasa cam sedih atau frustrated sangat. i don't know. Some people might thinks its weird and how did i actually not feeling anything like marah ke, bengang ke apa? but yeah i just don't felt anything. but anyway, one thing for sure i was HAPPY~!! at least we were still friends. ok la kan? =) entah la. basically cam okay~! tak reti la nak cakap. tp.. ok actually ada sedikit cam erm, feeling i wanted him to say yes. ada sikit sedih gak la sekarang. semlm x rasa sedih. tp hari ni baru rasa. but, i am actually understand why he say no and he gave me a good explaination. eventhough at first he was really gelabah. supposedly it was me who need to be gelabah but in the middle of it, it was him who actually is. however i really salute his attitude. mmg baik la org nya. at least masa last2 tu lepas i asked him can we be friends again and forget what i had said to him. i was really lega he said ok. but honestly i didn't felt any hard feeling towards him. x de marah sangat la. pilu la sikit. haha. tp aqela kan tabah org nya! =) basically the feeling yesterday was a mixture of sedih + happy + lega + blank + takut! haha. sedih sebab x dpt extra. tp x mengapa, aku jugak tidak menyesal. sebab apa yg telah terjadi aqela bangga dengan diri sendiri kerana sikap berani. happy sebab at least kwn. lega pun sebab dh bgtau. blank + takut tu sebab mula2 x tau nak cakap. anyway, i'm fine! moving on now! haha i'm still happy with myself~! seyesly, saya bangga ngan diri sendiri + happy sendiri + good to be single. jika ada seseorang itu, bagi saya perlu hingga ke akhirnye. perlu seseorg yg tepat. sebab org itu yang akan menjaga saya selama2 nya. yg akan mati hidup sama2.perkenalan juga perlu dlm niat yg baik + ikut sunnah. haha. cara Islam kan? betul kan. saya sensitif sikit. mmg suka cara ini. mcm emo. :D sebab saya takut kalo dkat sangat ngan lelaki. kalo kwn2 biasa, mmg la aqela x tak malu. just bila dh ada some other feeling, saya takut sikit. but, even when i'm not scared pun, i prefer this cara than couple. i don't know why, but my mind mcm dh ter'set' camnie. i like this choice. Islam is my way~! hehe :)

other than that, i am definitely studying on my another 4 papers, but more focus on the next week 1st. terrible really for studying at the late minute. should have schedule on the studies 1st but as many of you know i am soooo the malas one. haha. sangat malas nak study! apa nak jadi nie eh aqela? sangat malas semester ni.. how to be the old me like last semester. last semester sangat rajin. hehe. agak la rajin. tp i have make appointment wit lea cute to study SAD + DS!
chaiyok2 aqela! ada 4 papers lagi to go nie. need to baca sgt byk benda. haha. aqela can do it. study! i need tips. =) hehe

after 4 may, i'll be sgt seronok!! yay~ just ada PiTUM nye donation drive. malas sgt sebenarnye. :) entah mengapa. sgt malas. sebab kena buat pamphlet lagi. malas nye~! uwaaa mls.. haha tp kena wat. hehe aqela dan kemalasan mmg dh jati dah. dh mcm ibu dan anak. tido pun sama. haha. suka apa! :p hehe

ok babe, will write soon~ do keep me inform with anything. kinda down these days + lazy!

sedikit free~!

oops sgt lama tak post entry! sgt malas sebenarnye + konon2 nak study la jugak sebab exam month kan~! so far, baru 2 papers dh habis. next paper is next Monday on 27th April. sungguh lambat gap exam dier. x best! saya sangat x suka gap byk2! tapi x suka exam sebelah2 jugak. haha. pelik nye aqela. :D however next week sumer subject membaca. wahahaha. direct pulak tu. 27th, 29th, 30th April sumer subject membaca yg sgt banyak topics! subject itu adalah:

Organizational Theory
Information Security
System Analysis & Design

sungguh bosan~! therefore kena study ni. dh la sumer banyak topics. bukan topic sikit2. apa la! hehe. sem ni jugak, mood study xde sgt if compare ngan last semester. tak tahu kenapa sgt malas! waaaah kenapa aqela sangat malas ni sem nie? think by yourself why? :D

anyway, next issue would be about ehem2 again. kinda boring kan? teehee. tp sikit je kot nie. erm, well, actually sekarang dh xde perasaan sgt kat dier dh compare to last time. memang sangat x excited gila la cam dulu. rasa nye dulu lagi gila kot kalo jumpa. mesti sangat suka + happy + senyum sorang2. hehe. then dah kind of forget about him. suddenly a friend ym ni and tell him about my feelings. so dah start balik kegilaan nie. i mean bukan suka balik la. just i cannot stop wondering whether he actually thinks something different. how how? pls tell me. i am completely confused. not confused about my feeling, but confused of what to do next. most of my friends say 'GO! GO! KIKI GO! Go and tell him ur feeling!'. I have the high spirit and suddenly became inspire to tell him. Butwhen I wanted to actually type it, i could make it. Suddenly i become... GEDEBUSH! pengsan~! sebab sangat takut nak meluahkan. pastu kena cubit by sumer org sebab x meluahkan. memang lah tak nak kecewa, tp saya sangat takut nie. sila paham. hati aqela x kuat. hehe.. anyway, i was still thinking of how can i overcome this. this have overcome my life and i'm always so STRESSED! when i see him~ everytime i see him or his friends, i will definitely R.U.N!! seriously! aqela pasti lari. tak tahu kenapa. dah cam jadi automatic kalo jumpa, or more specific terserempak, i will definitely run or turn. i shouldn't do that right? cos it shows that i like him bukan? tapi entah. macam dh spontaneous begitu. hehe. hopefully i can forget this with peace. haha.

anyway, to the others, G.O.O.D L.U.C.K for this final exams!! Chaiyok~! :)

at H.O.M.E~

yes~ every assignments & presentations are [DONE]! so happy~! there is just 2 assignments that need to be submitted on Monday. but oh, well.. now its a S.T.U.D.Y W.E.E.K mode as well as holiday mode. haha. okay, supposedly i should be studying, but u know, a few days would be a holiday. however, i will indeed study after that. =)

hoho. tomorrow i will be heading to Johor Bahru to meet my cuzen~ yay yay! very happy indeed. yang nie consider holiday la kejap. haha. penat wat assignments + presentations la. so need some holiday~! yay! haha. will be back on wednesday i think. so most probably i won't updating my blog everyday. :) then what else, basically the reason i'm going off to johor is to visit my relative that i haven't meet for so long. at the same time, i will be going to visit my other cuzen since i haven't got the chance to see her on her wedding day. so, probably will need to visit her and see how things were over there. pretty much excited to go since it been so long. PLUS i bought the ticket by myself. haha. thats what i'm excited more than anything. :D yep, because i never bought bus ticket for myself my whole life. ahahaha.

anyhow, will write soon later. wanna go watch harry potter on astro now! yeah, i'm home already! hehehe =)

love qiqi
xoxo

adakah aku gila? suka itu aku punya~

haha. ok itu tajuk just statement~! :D some assignments are done. yay~! suka. a few dah present. therefore status assignment jugak dh tukar like:


SAD [DONE] presentation + submission
ISM [DONE, but] not yet presentation + submission
Theory [half DONE] dh presentation + not yet submission.
SECURITY [no changes] both not done. haha..


but pretty much done, and less burden sebab assignments dh hampir habis. lega dowh~! kalo x, rasa sgt x best. very the stress! this sem is quite gila.. i'm not into the sem this time around cos my schedule are pretty much not nice one.. basically, to me, this semester was quite a teruk for me to adjust. or most tepat answer is that i didn't manage my time well this time around. OVER PLAYED! haha. that's me~! sem ni banyak main! seyesly yes.. walaupun have to be equal, but i can't help but play and play and more play. because my life is full of play-ness. hehe. why would u miss all those fun in ur 'muda-mudi' life? hahaha. but do not, miss out ar ur academic life~ itu lebih penting. haha *LOL* best2 to play & have fun~ :D

anyway, i just read a blog of a friend of mine, AZRIE~! she awarded me one of those awesome blog she read/like. aha.. something i could talk about here aite. actually i was the one who R.E.A.L.L.Y L.O.V.E. her blog! quite interesting, cos i was the one who always keep track of what she wrote in her blog. in her blog there is something i like the most to read, a blog that always make u wanna come back n read it again. haha. seyesly~! do go over n tag or link her. quite interesting. ada sedikit jenaka n lawak. always make me laugh reading it, but when there is moments when she luahan her perasaan, i did felt the same way as she does. i wonder if azrie even notice that what she felt is what i felt when i was her during my youngest moment. haha. i'm not that old, duhhh~ haha.. but when i was her age. :D *LOL* terlebih sudah.. terlalu banyak puji. haha. anyway, here the award! :D


1. The winner can put the logo on his/her awesome blog

2. Link the person you received your award from.
## azrie yg cute ## blog url: http://www.noazrie.blogspot.com


3. Nominate max 7 other blog

azrie cute~
husna cunnn!
waaz
leafareesya.
dzul fahmie
** saya jarang baca blog org lain. so ada limited blog like them that i read. no other people. will read their blogs when they promote it or when i like the blog =)**


Leave a message on the blogs of those you’ve nominated!

erm, xpe la. mekaseh. haha. xde masa la sekarang. just ada masa nak upload entry je.
hahaha. alasan.. sengal lg sekali. :P

anyway, arinie jugak kelas habis kul 9mlm. but, as usual kelas habis 9++. penat sgt. sebab yesterday i slept at 5am. pastu bangun solat, pastu tido balik, then wake up again at 9am in the morning becoz dh janji ngan dila kamila tu buy tiket to jb as well as cucuk duit. sebab xde duit nak byr tiket bas yg MAHAL nak mati tu. nanti nak tanya waaz, berapa ringgit duit balik johor sebenarnye. haha. nampak sgt jakun x pernah naik bas express! tp mmg x pernah. sekali je pernah,tp makcik ku tersyg yg belikan. hehe. tp dila sakit perut. so gi sorg2, tp jumpa mar, dpn kolej n gi skali. Mar nak cucuk duit jugak. so pergi sama2. at last, dpt jugak beli tiket bas yg diidami! kuikuikui. xpernah naik bas & beli tuket bas. so cam SANGAT excited! haha. every second gi check tiket bas tu. haha. nasib xde org nampak aqela sedang merenung tiket bas tu dengan penuh kagum sebab beli sendiri. dah la mahal. isk3, kalo hilang atau x jadi balik, mahu aku menangis jugak. hehe.. masih excited ni.. :D nanti tido, tgk lagi tiket tu. hehe. cepat cepat sabtu dtg! :)

oh, yeah. ada ceramah agama kat dewan makan. tp aqela x pergi. penat la lepas kelas yg lewat habis nie. gi mkn jap ngan natrah. pastu terserempak husna + nadhrah. tp semasa lalu dewan mkn, nampak jejaka idaman yg telah melukakan hati ku khusyuk mendengar ceramah agama tersebut. tetapi apa yg perlu ku kisah.. nak bagi ayat ni ar lain kali 'ada aku kesah?' kat dier. but kena ada reaksi muka yg cunnn.. antonasi suara jua perlu ada. kena wat suara yg bengang + hati terluka. oooh, now i felt the mood for DAVID ARCHULETA song which is, A LITTLE TOO NOT OVER YOU. hehe. ooh something like 'tanpamu hidup ku x mengerti.' ayat dr lagu TANPA.
aaargh, aqela menjadi jiwang! haha. pls lempang qiqi again & again! but not with kompang pls. oops, kwn2 dier jugak ahli kompang. sila lempang TETTTTS untuk akak aqela yg cun sgt ni~ haha until qiqi wake up in a new world. if bangun cam the Matrix nye world, is it kinda cool? best! ada neo yg hensem bersama2. haha. dh imaginasi melencong~ tp apa ku kisah, cinta itu perasaan gue. gue punya perasaan. tp sila jadikan qiqi menjadi seorg yg lebih baik ok? cos this kid is definitely make me terrible not worth myself! idiot guy like u shouldnt have a person as good as me. hahaha. perasan.. lalalalala.

ok adios amigos.. will write soon again~!

love qiqi! :)
xoxo

cinta ku~!

lalalala.
i still have a few assginments left. very lazy already lorh. haha

SAD [DONE]
ISM [ALMOST DONE]
THEORY ORGANIZATION [DONE]
SECURITY [EMPTY-HANDED] hehee. yg ni paling teruks~! *LOL*

however, just presentation is on the way. almost finish! after that, everything will be done. i'm really penat already.. cinta ku kepada assignments hampir habis. haha. hurry hurry friday to come! i want to go back home.. :D

anyway, about 'cinta ku', haha. no sure what to say. what i can definitely say is that I'M TOTALLY OVER HIM~! oh okay la. tak la so totally over la. but have improved already. i think i have been stronger. haha. weird~ but definitely not so gila like i used to be when i saw him. when i actually see him, i don't have those feeling i used to be. u know, the feeling of happy, suka, muka malu2, hati berbunga2, asyik nak senyum sorang2 nye perasaan tu. alaah perasaan tu la.. haha. dah tak ada dah. quite surprising i was quite over him agak cepat. basically over yg frust menonggeng teruk last week. haha. last week, u should not see me! seriously muka penyek. hahaha. mata lebam ari2. tido lambat + nangis. hahaha. mcm panda yg disayangi azri! haha. dah la time tu nak kena submit assignment DS kekasih hati ku yang ke-dua. teehee~ wahahaaha, tp sgt rindu nak cakap ngan dier masa before everything like this happens. i felt happy at the time~ because i felt i had someone to talk to me + give me support. or what i can say someone who listen on a guy side. for girl side, tak payah ckp la. i had so MANY good friends to talk to & be there for me like; wanie hanapiah, natrah, emi, arre, ada, marleni, as well as juniors who are good to me & always listen when i was damn crazy + noisy + nosy like, nadia, azrie, husna, & nadhrah. actually kan, i think i really fall hard for him. oleh itu, last week sgt frust menonggeng! tak tahu la mana betul, but i have promised myself to be more fast & furious later on. haha. have u heard of 'cinta itu buta!'. haha ok ok. that phrase xde kena mengena. haha. below is what i got from a website. pretty much inspiring~ :D suka.. walaupun kekadang doa jugak, kalo2 dier kepunyaanku! hahahaha. melampau kan. but yeah, moving on now!! will have to..

i do not want to be a stupid person who just wait & see whats gonna happen. life is what about waiting and see~! we have to make it happen. though i am a bit slow in this, i know i need to work it out. though sometimes i felt like life is unfair to me, i know i was the one who make my life this way sometimes. eventhough i may look desperate and hunger for the love of my life, i know i can life by myslef at the moment. I'm not that stupid to waste my life like that! :) life is what it is. haha. cinta mari kepadaku~! ku memerlukan mu. haha. sengal aqela~!

oh saturday ni nak balik kampung in johor bahru. me need to be going and visit my relatives before the exams start. go go! during the classes, i didnt have the time to go back and visit them. so i make myself free for a while during study week for them~! i miss them dearly and even missed my lovely cuzen wedding at Singapore~! sorry Kak Liza! i didn't manage to come to ur wedding, but i will definitely go and visit u next week ok Kak Liza! :) akan akan datang~! can't wait. haha. anyone yg ingin pesan apa2, sila bgtau qiqi ok. :D akan try belikan barang2 utkmu.

ok, will drop by soon! adios.. daaaa~


love qiqi... :D




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lalalala.. arinie dh submit DS and dh present security yg pairing tu. tinggal assignment OT, security and SAD as well as ISM. :) presentation lg. aduyai. x abis sgt lagi. penat kan! tp sebab nak release tensen, td gi tgk mlm juara2. ok la. x berapa best sgt~! certain stuff je best cam boria n nyanyian. tarian tu best jugak. selebihnye x best.

apa lagi nk ckp? aqela sedang bosan. sila tolong! hahaha. maybe nak gi tgk movie dlm laptop ni. ada byk sgt movie sampai x leh nak tgk. :) daaa see ya later.

S.T,R.E.S.S

wahhh, sudah kul 3.4o pg tepat. masih x tido lagi. haha. sedang membuat assignment DATA STRUCTURE yang amat disayangi org ramai~ sgt 'best' subject nie! sampai rasa nak hug and kisses a.k.a XOXO. haha. seyesly sangat sayang! :D adess penat la wat. coding yang memeningkan! :p report pun pening~! sok kena submit before 12pm. after 12pm, will not considered right? hekhek. this sem is quite tough & serious. *LOL* how did i manage my time? :P

right after wat sikit DS report & coding, aqela membuat slide Security Control title; partial distributed IDS control. Tp sebab x faham title, aqela membuat IDS control dengan sesuka hati. hah padan muka~! kena wat sorg2. biaq padan hang! hahaha. sebab dh mabuk assignment. sapa suh wat camnie? lewat-lewat.. padan muka sebijik.

ok then life must go on~ aqela menghadapi saat2 getir jugak hari ni. rasa nak marah & menangis lagi. aku teramat sedih kerana terlepas pandang sesuatu. tetapi oleh kerana nasihat dari kawan ku seorang bernama waaz. hehe.. waaz budak baik telah memberi sokongan padu. haha. selepas memberitahu hampir segala nye, aqela telah merasa sedikit lega. at least tak la rasa beban sgt. dier tak la ckp byk2. tp dier mendengar serba-sedikit, dh kira ok la. sebab ada org mendengar. kadang-kadang terasa kebodohan sendiri kenapa macam nie. kenapa aqela x leh menjadi tabah macam orang lain? haha. surely i think if i said this in public, people will definitely scold me one. i mean, saying i'm stupid for a thing that wasn't exactly mine. what u think? stupid right? therefore dun be like me.. duffus~ emo terlebih.. anyway, itu satu kes. ada lagi satu kes, which i won't really write here. man, i was so damn angry with this specific person. buat2 x paham pulak kita marah dier. angin je~ entah la. dier wat x paham ke, dier wat bodoh ke, saje2. isk3 pening!

huuhuuu perlu out and membuat slide lg! daaa~

love qiqi~! :D

F.L.U

hari ni hari yg x best. tak tahu dapat flu dari mana, but since yesterday dh batuk2. ingat x serius, tp malam semlm tak boleh tido. seriusly asyik bangun + batuk2 + demam sikit. pagi ni pula, batuk teruk, flu jugak. semasa quiz SAD pula, hidung dh meleleh. haha. adoi. tak disangka sgt teruk. time petang dah ok sikit. mlm sakit balik. sedih nye~ muka aqela sudah pucat + batuk2 x berhenti + demam dtg balik. [AWAY SLEEPING] :D

ronda2 amik slip exam~ :D

genap pukul 4, saya telah keluar untuk menunggu bas. gara2 nak check yuran dh complete tak kat bendahari. tp kul 430 baru bas dtg. lepas dh naik n sampai kat library. jln2 gi bendahari pulak nak pengesahan yuran dh byr complete and nak gi amik slip. selepas settle, gi beli stationery kat kps! hehe. sebenarnye nak membuang masa. sebab agak boring. padahal, assignment tgh tunggu tu nak suruh buat.

sigh! aqela seyes sgt malas.. assgnmt sgt bantak x siap. present lagi. adoi. hahaha. tp masa tgh nak tunggu bas balik kolej, terserempak ngan nadia n kay. mereka nak gi mid~ baru nak duduk sekali kenal panggil.. mencari2 ku sapa kan yg memanggil. sekali ehh 'lorh korang ke? nak gi mana?'. huhu. mula2 memang sgt malas. sebab tgh pikir asggnmt tunggu kat bilik. sekali dier kata kejap je, so aqela pun on je la. tp mmg kejap, sebab balik kul 630. pergi pun kul 515 kot. tp 5++. tp x beli apa pun. teman beli donut je kot. pastu balik mkn kat dm.

lepas amik mknan kat dm, nampak, husna, azri n nadhrah. so gi duduk mkn ngan dierorg. makan2 dengan syoknye, tp x mkn habis sebab x larat. haha.. lagipun igt nasi lemak, tp mkn ikan la hari ni. x best. hehe

ok aqela is off to assignment~ daaa

Lone Ranger~ do u know what i mean? :P

DEBUSH~ I think i need to be more strong like the song STRONGER by Britney Spears! these few days have been a bad days. terrible state in the heart! someone helps.. CPR pls! ahaks. CPR for the 'kepatahan hati'. ada x? *LOL* pelik bukan. hee nak gila aku dowh memikirkan benda bodoh ini..

here is the start of the lone ranger moments. the methodology or algorithm. chewahh guna the ayat of assignment now; methdology here:
## the start to perasan him.
## then forgot who he is
## a few months baru sedar balik, pastu tersuka
## admire mcm nak roboh and bagai kan taufan.
## sesi perkenalan. *happy*
## jumpa sebab sem dh bukak *happy bertambah*
## ahah pastu, perkenalan merundum. mcm decreasing chart. u can imagine it right? :)
## keep decreasing the friendship n admiring.
## [NOW] frust menonggeng! hahaha. tp x lah teruk frust. cos i'm not that stupid~

basically something i need to tell him that:
>> dun be too perasan. u think i really NEED u is it? are u mentally disorder? kebudusan la kamu. cam kanak2 ribena. aku kebudak2an pun tak macam kamu. no one need someone like u when u act this week. E.X.T.R.E.M.E.L.Y N.O.T M.A.T.U.R.E! lalala.

well, i'm not mature as well, but yeah i can think well. even more logic dh kamu. muka cam baik. aish.. x baik sungguh berkata begini. tetapi itu adalah realiti. teehee. lalala. tolong perbaiki hati ku sedih leh? tolong lempang aqela pls! :D

in need to be lempang~ bukan kompang eh. lempang! haha.

oh yeah, this is not the full perasaan hati ku ini. this is just the quarter i think. or maybe half. how can i tell everything in here? hati pedih sgt~ *Mata bengkak dh kot semasa menulis blog ini!*

actually if i could have told u in the 1st place, i will. if i have the guts, i will. it is just the way u acted, as well as the way i acted. may looked damn stupid! there when it happens. the stupidity of me to acted the way i acted. *LOL*

daaa..