this is what i felt for myself~!

what does life means to you?

how does you feel about yourself?

have you ever felt small in this big world of yours?

*sigh*

that is what i felt this passed few weeks or for this current month.

i wasn't in myself these days. really not in the mood most of time.

does not felt like hanging out much.. but like to be in an 'alone mood'.

talking with friends indeed a good feeling.

but sometimes in this world, i don't think i have friend who really be there for me. really am not~

raise your hand if you ever be on my side the whole time when i'm down, when i'm crazy, when i'm not myself, when i'm annoying, when i'm became undecided~!

is there anyone who really there for me for the bad and okay moment?

sometimes i doubt there is.

though life makes you understand and experience it.

i'm not one of those who really tough.

i got my moments~!

i can be VERY emotional when i want too!

i can be annoying when i feel like it.

i can be over the top when i like it.

now i don't feel like studying!

yes, u heard me right.

i don't feel like studying anymore.

for not getting good grades in university is very bad for me!

i felt sooo damn not confident!

low esteem overcome me.

computer science is not what i wanted to do.

i have not choice. though these days, people said there is.

for some people, there isn't!

i wanted to do business.

i wanted to be a baker.

i wanted to be anything that is not IT things.

when you're not into something, okay for me, i don't even want to do anything.

but what can i change things that happen to me at this time?

*feeling small indeed*

PS will post on new year aim soon! i am still thinking what is my aim.