damn! i miss u~

dear people.

i'm tired of this feeling.
can i just not have this feeling anymore?
can i?
but i miss him so terribly!!
i do!
i wanted to see him today, but he got stuff to do.
i really miss him.
so much until i cannot tahan already.
uwaaaaa...
x suka this feeling~
can i just say that i like u without any shyness and be brave?
can i just scream out saying that i love u without thinking and wish u say "yes i like u too"?
can i possible have something this time.
for real.
for me.
for the love i have long enough waited for.


xoxo, aqela @ kiki

i'm suffering~

just got back from night rider event II.

with azrie, nadhrah as well 1st year junior FSKTM; bazli ngan alif. :)

best giler. kitaorg g medan selera dkt mana ntah, tp area vistana hotel.

next destination were dataran merdeka tp sekejap sbb sunyi giler.

then we went to stop at 7-11 at the dataran merdeka as well heading to shah alam for a ronda-ronda!

haha. it was definitely fun!

weeeeeee~!

sgt best bg saya yg sgt kecewa.

seriously i was DAMN devastated today!

how seriously i wanted to cried at warung the moment i got to know the truth.

i reached back to college at 10.10pm at night.

then went off to eat dinner at warung wit azrie + nadh~

was happy 1stly, then felt dumb the next moment.

i was definitely admire the person and was about to get to know him.

only to discover i was cheated.

he definitely played me.

i was shocked to know he was eventually close to a person i trust.

i mean that i knew the girl who was with him had a boyfriend~!

cos i knew i saw & tegur her before when she went dating wit her bf.

they might be friends.

but can a friend be having dinner, just the 2 of them & lepak together just the 2 of them for like 3 days or so?

i don't know. i might jump into conclusion so fast, but i know i was hurt!

DEFINITELY IT HURTS!

i was down!

i talked to the girl when i, azrie and nadh went to DM.

haha. but my mind was elsewhere. i couldn't straight.. *weak smile*

soon i discovered i went night ranger with all 4 of FSKTM students of different year intake!! haha

padan muka! amat la tensen ngan exam x prepare sgt, pastu kena sebijik bdk yg diminati ngan org lain. *weeeee... benci~!*

i was so hurt even what other said to me i couldn't accept.

so... i went off to sms-ing husna about it!

damn love her for being supportive! as well as azrie + nadhrah for being there!

love the 3 of them for being there.. :)

appreciated u guys much. XD

lepas sms-ing husna, i sms-ing firdaus. *my fave 1st year guy junior*

thx a bunch to him for giving me a supportive shoulder and inspiration!

thanks for supporting me and on my side.

the way husna, azrie + nadhrah been supportive the whole night and morning!

haha. oh x habaq yg kitaorg kuar gi jalan2 kat kl from 12 in the morning to 6am~!!!!

woooohooo!

kami gila... hahahahhahahaha..

anyway, take note that i still HURT~!

but thanks for the ride~! totally forgot about it the whole 6 hours. hahaha..

aqela is moving on~~

gone baby gone

*weak*
*happy it's holiday*
*bored*
*loving holiday*
*blur*
*frustrated*

ok ok. haha. move on. can u believe the holiday got only 9 or 10 days left before the semester starts? *sigh* i want more holiday~! cis memang mengada. hahaha. dah ada 2 bulan cuti nak cuti lagi. :D anyway, i practically don't have the mood for the study season at the moment. *LOL* i dont wanna come back to UM. haha. but what to do? my home is practically behind UM itself~! haha. i can even see 10th college from my house. *aqela bengong* huhu.

anyway, i just read a friend's blog. she just came back from Umrah. it reminds me about my Umrah one year ago. exactly a year from the time she went. what she wrote was practically 'indah'~! haha. yeah, because at the time when i went to Mecca and Madinah, i felt completely free, happy. i didn't even think about my life here in KL. haha. it didn't even came up to me for the 2 whole weeks, except when i was going back home already. :p however reading her stories and side of view make me think about the feeling i had a year ago when i went for Umrah myself. what an experience though. :) nice moment and wanted to go again. i have a few places/countries myself that i want to visit in the future. you know, france, italy, korea, finland, indonesia (again~!). hehe.

so, this holiday i kinda have done a few things. i'm not sure of saying that i'm proud that i finished doing it. haha. here some:
serious task: PiTUM booklet.
my brother project booklet. (this one i wanna see the output. its gonna be
turned to be a book)

books that i read: stargirl by jerry spinelli
if u could see me now by cecilia ahern
milkweed by jerry spinelli
the broken bridge by phillip pullman.

movies: night at the museum 2
state of play

dramas: boys over flower, korean
bloody monday
ryusei something2. (haha cannot remember the title)
ugly betty season 3 (half way. didn't download another half. hayya..)

okey dokey babes~! i'm lost in translation again. gonna finish here at the moment. am discussing with my brother what time are we going to watch Transformer 2. SHIA!! wait for me~!

here FIND by SS501. my jihu a.k.a kim hyung jool~!